Sunday
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Day 129 18:5
TODAY'S THE DAY
You ever finally get there? And so, dear friends, this is the dawning of a new age and the end of an epoch. Within the next 24 hours i will be, please God, on a plane to the holy land, to learn truth. i just want to wish everyone here much success in their own seeking of truth. Learn! i hope to continue el-blogo in Israel, maybe less frequently, but still going.
Day 129 18:5
TODAY'S THE DAY
You ever finally get there? And so, dear friends, this is the dawning of a new age and the end of an epoch. Within the next 24 hours i will be, please God, on a plane to the holy land, to learn truth. i just want to wish everyone here much success in their own seeking of truth. Learn! i hope to continue el-blogo in Israel, maybe less frequently, but still going.
Ufduyei Hashem Yeshuvun, uva'u tzion b'rinah.
those redeemed by God will return, and will come to Israel in JOY
Tuesday
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Day 123, 17:5
Proof and Doubt
You ever gave a conversation that completly blows you off your feet? A friend and I went out for tea, and he's recently starting to progress in the sinaitic direction. I thought he was going to ask me about keeping shabbat, or dealing with parents. Nope, we had a long discussion on should he just drop everything. It was very intense. I could tell he was not liking the answers i was giving. It made me realize that i myself don't have hardcore proof of the Torah. I have always asserted that belief in God stems very little from intellectual proof, although logic and ration are certainly factors. We discussed a little, and in the end, and he said he really enjoyed what i said (although, as noted earlier, i think he was just saying it to be polite). There was no closure. I didn't have one last good lasting, solid point.
All this made me realize how much more work i need in two major areas: 1, answering questions effectively, 2, proof in God.
It's odd. it hasn't even crossed my mind to stop being observant, and yet i'm deep in doubt right now in the accuracy of torah. weird.
Day 123, 17:5
Proof and Doubt
You ever gave a conversation that completly blows you off your feet? A friend and I went out for tea, and he's recently starting to progress in the sinaitic direction. I thought he was going to ask me about keeping shabbat, or dealing with parents. Nope, we had a long discussion on should he just drop everything. It was very intense. I could tell he was not liking the answers i was giving. It made me realize that i myself don't have hardcore proof of the Torah. I have always asserted that belief in God stems very little from intellectual proof, although logic and ration are certainly factors. We discussed a little, and in the end, and he said he really enjoyed what i said (although, as noted earlier, i think he was just saying it to be polite). There was no closure. I didn't have one last good lasting, solid point.
All this made me realize how much more work i need in two major areas: 1, answering questions effectively, 2, proof in God.
It's odd. it hasn't even crossed my mind to stop being observant, and yet i'm deep in doubt right now in the accuracy of torah. weird.
Sunday
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Day 121 17:2
Giddy
You ever feel giddy? So giddy? I am very giddy-gid-giddy! Israel in 8 days, hey, Israel in 8 days! Cha-cha-cha-cha-cha-cha, Cha-cha-cha-cha-cha-cha! I hope to continue bloggin' in Israel, maybe not as frequently, maybe more, maybe a little more holier, maybe not. It's good to be giddy. Be giddy.
Day 121 17:2
Giddy
You ever feel giddy? So giddy? I am very giddy-gid-giddy! Israel in 8 days, hey, Israel in 8 days! Cha-cha-cha-cha-cha-cha, Cha-cha-cha-cha-cha-cha! I hope to continue bloggin' in Israel, maybe not as frequently, maybe more, maybe a little more holier, maybe not. It's good to be giddy. Be giddy.
Wednesday
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Day 117 16:5
ANNOUNCEMENT
All are invited to Shalosh Seudos at the BAYT (613 clark) on Aug. 21st to come hear me, Aaron, finish all of mishna and give a little speech type thingy. 8:00 PM. bring your friends. please. It would mean a lot to me.
Day 117 16:5
ANNOUNCEMENT
All are invited to Shalosh Seudos at the BAYT (613 clark) on Aug. 21st to come hear me, Aaron, finish all of mishna and give a little speech type thingy. 8:00 PM. bring your friends. please. It would mean a lot to me.
Monday
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Day 115, 16:3
Weird Emotions
You ever feel really sad without feeling anything at all? My best friends just moved to Israel today, and, although I'm going to see them in two weeks, I feel like i have just removed a big chunk of my life. But i actually also feel indifferent at the same time. I'm the most emotional non-emotional person I know! confused? me too. see, i don't cry, or don't get really upset or bothered, i don't have huge breakdowns, I'm not really sensitive, and yet, i always feel very emotional charged. its really weird.
Day 115, 16:3
Weird Emotions
You ever feel really sad without feeling anything at all? My best friends just moved to Israel today, and, although I'm going to see them in two weeks, I feel like i have just removed a big chunk of my life. But i actually also feel indifferent at the same time. I'm the most emotional non-emotional person I know! confused? me too. see, i don't cry, or don't get really upset or bothered, i don't have huge breakdowns, I'm not really sensitive, and yet, i always feel very emotional charged. its really weird.
Sunday
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Day 109, 15:4
BIG BIG PLANS
You ever get really excited over a new project you're undertaking? I just decided to accomplish a major (secret) goal before August 23, D-Day (departure). I am so excited and pumped and filled with adrenalin to finish my mission. Big plans underway. Let's just say that if you are going to be in the GTA on shabbos afternoon, the 20th, keep your plans open...wink wink. Okay, never mind the winking.
Day 109, 15:4
BIG BIG PLANS
You ever get really excited over a new project you're undertaking? I just decided to accomplish a major (secret) goal before August 23, D-Day (departure). I am so excited and pumped and filled with adrenalin to finish my mission. Big plans underway. Let's just say that if you are going to be in the GTA on shabbos afternoon, the 20th, keep your plans open...wink wink. Okay, never mind the winking.
Tuesday
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Day 102, 14:4
PARADIGM SHIFT
You ever have your entire life change in the course of five minutes? I've been bloggin' recently about my recent listlessness, anxiety and depression. Today was the saddest day on the Jewish calendar and it has been 2,000 years and 3 weeks in the making. However, when i prayed the evening prayers tonight and finished the fast, my entire world reversed. I couldn't help smiling. I wanted to dance. I feel so much new energy and life. Think not that external behaviours mean nothing to the inner kernel of soul. When you act sad, you become sad; when you act happy, you become happy. Thanks to the almighty who has re-granted us the gift of simcha. Now that 9th of av, the saddest day, is over, we can prepare for the 15th of av, 1 of the happiest days.
You rock, aybishter.
Day 102, 14:4
PARADIGM SHIFT
You ever have your entire life change in the course of five minutes? I've been bloggin' recently about my recent listlessness, anxiety and depression. Today was the saddest day on the Jewish calendar and it has been 2,000 years and 3 weeks in the making. However, when i prayed the evening prayers tonight and finished the fast, my entire world reversed. I couldn't help smiling. I wanted to dance. I feel so much new energy and life. Think not that external behaviours mean nothing to the inner kernel of soul. When you act sad, you become sad; when you act happy, you become happy. Thanks to the almighty who has re-granted us the gift of simcha. Now that 9th of av, the saddest day, is over, we can prepare for the 15th of av, 1 of the happiest days.
You rock, aybishter.
